Now I come to the really hard part. The one that tugs at my soul because I am not sure what is correct. As I stated last night I don’t really have a problem with a mandate for certain countries.  2 of those are Somalia and Yemen.  I am not sure why we let any one in from those countries. If you don’t understand look up USS Cole or watch the movie Black Hawk down.  The movie probably did not show all the horror that went on at that time. Well as I did not put down last night the mandate has been over turned for now. I can live with that also.

The trouble in my heart is when it comes to refugees.  People that cannot go back and live because they have no place to go back to.  Nothing. No home, no business and no one to buy anything even if it was still standing. The Bible is very clear on how we should treat those that are less fortunate than we are.  Jesus says even our enemies should be treated well. Those things are in the Word. We cannot deny that. Yet where do we put these refugees? How many do we take in or let live in one area? Do we give them trailers like they tried to do for Katrina.  Do we make shelters for them like they did for the American citizens that had Japanese in their blood. Wire around the camps with armed guards and dogs. How many millions for this broke country do we spend on housing,safety for them and us, medical help, food and clothing.  All these are good questions I think but I do not have an answer for any of them.

People say why doesn’t the other Muslim countries take them in.  They might if they were the same type of Muslim. But there are 5 different sects of Muslims. None of them like or tolerate the other. Sunnis will war against Shi’ites and vice versa and their are at least 3 more that are all separate. Iran will not hake in any one from Iraq and the Saudis will not take any one from Syria. Even  those of the same sect.  Turkey did because the government is secular but as you know from the news they are having problems themselves.

Now again I write this for myself.  If you disagree with me on anything that is okay on my part.  I don’t expect every one to agree with me.  Thank you for reading. Ben C.

Open your eyes,Open your ears, listen to your heart.

This may be the hardest blog for me up to this point.That is saying a lot because I have struggled with several for several different reasons. This is hard because I have to believe 100% what I am writing 100%. Not so say I  am right in everything I put down but that I have a conviction that I am believe in what I am saying. This is not the time to be wishy washy.

Trump is now president. Not quite a month but he has already been called the worst president we have ever had. But not one of you can tell me why.  He nor Congress has taken away the ACA. He has not built any wall on the Mexican border. He has made a mandate against countries that harbor terrorist or have done terrorist activities against us. But he is not the one in charge of letting people in or out. President Obama and Clinton as well as Bush did similar acts when they were president. But not one of then have been accosted like Trump has. He like they did left out a country that should be high on the list, Saudi Arabia. We also know why.  OIL. Whether or not the mandate will work is yet to be seen.  But if it is like most mandates, then there will be abuses of so called power. Good people will not be allowed to get into the country or even BACK into the country. Why, who knows, we won’t. But I am not going to condemn him  for this.  It is his way of trying to stop the bad guys from getting in and hurting people. Will it work? Not 100% but he should do what he sees fit.  Give it a shot.

Should he build a wall. I say no. It is too cost prohibitive to even try. Now I am all for beefing up the Border Patrol giving them more money and the right to have them deal with the illegals. ICE deported around 250 this past week. Most if not all were convicted criminals. You would have thought they had never done this before. Bill Clinton did it, Bush did it and Obama sent 2 million back. Probably all the way back to Reagan. During Clinton’s term, Simmons Food at plant 1 and 2 was shut down for 2 hours while ICE  checked people and papers out. So quit your belly aching. That is nothing new.

Trump’s new cabinet members. Most I have never heard of as is usual, so I can’t say they will great or lousy. But most of the reasons I heard from Democrats were not good enough reasons not to try them out any how. I do think the Trump pick for Supreme Court Justice should be seated.  Was Obama’s pick unqualified, I am sure he was a good judge and lawyer at one time. But because Obama picked him I do think he would have been pro-abortion. I do not want to see a court that is for the destroying of life. Do I think abortion will be banned? No, because I do not think any one will try. I would like to see it over turned bur honestly I do not see it happening. Now I am all for defunding Planned Parenthood. Every government cent they get.  In 2015 they got over 500 million dollars from the government. They received over 350 million from private donations and 300 million from non-government sources.  They do not need tax money to survive.

Stopping this tonight to be continued later.

“Keep On Going”

Yes, I borrowed that from NCIS.  It is short for”if you are going through hell, keep on going”. Ducky told Jimmy that in last weeks episode. I am not going through the whole show so don’t worry about that.  It is more of what I am putting myself through.  No, my life isn’t collapsing. Far from it; but that trimming needs to keep on and I some how need to buck up.  I feel so stupid at times knowing what I am supposed to do but keep on doing the wrong thing.  I am so glad I have a merciful God that  has an endless amount of grace. As you may have noticed this is my third time to write this month. I only do it if I feel the urge. I know these aren’t always great and may be boring at times but they help me get a lot off my chest. And that is the reason I write, as a stress remover and a way to express my feelings at the moment. I am alone most of the time. I have no children to yell at, no wife to put me in my place and no dog to talk to when I need to talk. So I write. The computer only tells me when I spell a word wrong.

I got to see my granddaughter this past weekend. First time in 15 years. Too long and sad of a story to put down on this but I am very grateful she let me meet meet her. It was 20 minutes during a work break for her.  Not enough time to make up for 15 years but I soaked up every minute.  She is a very smart senior at Harbor, and a pretty redhead.  She has even written a book.  She also likes to talk and does it rapidly. I guess most girls her age do. Plus she may have been a little stressed also.   She has made my month even with all the trials going on.

About time for bed.  I hope you are all well. Ben.




Being Trimmed.

I told a friend the other day I was going through a rough patch.  And I thought I was.  But now I think it was more than that. I maybe being trimmed as the verses in John 15. The verses about the vineyard that has to be trimmed to produce good fruit.  Well I feel like I am being trimmed.  In those verses the Holy Spirit comes and trims away the stuff that is useless and doesn’t produce good fruit.  Now we all would like to think that means dead things or vine. But that isn’t all that is cut off. There are live branches that get cut and trimmed also. I don’t think a vine of grapes feels pain or anxiety when being trimmed. We do.  Yes I said we. I believe we all have done things that He has trimmed away and it hurt. Not necessarily because we want to keep doing what we were doing but because we couldn’t rid ourselves of it. Either we didn’t have the nerve to do it or we never got rid of the right branches. When the Holy Spirit works He never misses or cuts away the wrong vine. He always get the correct ones and He never takes too much or too little. Every week this month has been hard but good. It has been hard because I let things get out of hand that I thought I could or thought I was handling, areas of my life that should have died a long time ago. I let them back in. But God’s grace is always there for us when we need it most. Now I need to repent. A word that I have used on blogs on the net to others. Now I need to step up[ but that still means relying on the Holy Spirit.]

The Good is that I have seen great things happen all around me. Healings and other things that only God could do. But I have also heard sermons and been in small groups where God was trying to get me ready for this trimming I am receiving. I have never felt like God had left me or was losing my faith or salvation. Sermons on grace, redemption, faith. All the things that I have needed to hear.

You may ask why I would put this here, on a site where every one can read it. It is to let every one know that God loves you just as you are. Whether you have done things lately that is truly gross or if you are being trimmed like me and going through a hard time. God loves us. I ask that you pray for me and let me know either by FACEBOOK messenger or call me and I will pray for you. You don’t have to tell me why or what you are going through. Just say pray for me. I will.



I guess every new year we wonder what the new year will hold.  Will it be as good as the last? It has got to be better than the last. Will this be my last? Yes, a new year can be a frightening  experience , a challenging one,  a despondent one or a joyous happening that will last the whole year. I have no special eye into the new year, to see what is ahead. I try to take them one day at a time like most every one else.  But I have a feeling that 2017 will be a challenge to a lot of us no matter where we are. We have a new president. To some that is a great thing and to others it is a cause of fear. Trump is not the man I had hoped for. Yes I do think he is better than the other but we will find out soon if that is true or not. I do not put my trust in the president of the United States no matter who it is. I have not seen one yet that was great all the time or who I thought did what was right every time. I do not put my trust in republicans or democrats. They are both are flawed and will let every one down sooner or later. We have all learned not to trust Congress any time. They will not bring happiness or love. They will not heal the sick or cloth the naked or feed the poor. They cannot heal the heart or get rid of racism, hate or mistrust.  They cannot pick me up when I am at my lowest point or put me into the Heavenlies with joy,love or peace.

We will all go through rough times. Some do or will have health problems, others family or money troubles.  But we should all know who to lean on, cry out too and shout for joy too. There is nothing to hard for Jesus. There is nothing too big or to small. For many of us we know that is true. Others you want to believe that but seem to have a hard time letting go of things and giving them over to Christ.  Some will say I have but not seen anything come from it. To that I say did you want a part time fix or did you give Christ your whole heart. God is not something we can dial up and order or something Amazon has that if if the product didn’t do as we had hoped we can exchange it.

Many have difficulties of some sort and would like to see them go away. Sometimes they do. When they do be sure to give God the glory no matter if you think a miracle happened or not. Maybe a friend helped you out or you got money in the mail or a doctor gave you medicine that worked. God works in the small as well as the big. But Ben, you say I still have my problems or I lost some one close to me. I too have lost some very close to me. But I know that they are with Christ and waiting on me to be with them. He is God and will work the way He wants but He wants us to ask for the small and the big.  I don’t care what church you attend or how you feel about God working in your life. A lot has to do with how you big you think God is. Whether He is something only for Sundays or He is Lord of every step you take and every breath you breathe. If you  want a big God you must want Him all the time and you must ask for big things.

I guess I am getting preachy. Forgive me. This isn’t for any one special or any group. Today at my small church, I got an inkling of what is going to happen in my life and for my church. It is very exciting and I am looking forward to it. I will still be poor and waiting for God to heal my whole body. But until that day comes I will praise Him in the valleys and the mountain tops. I will shout unto the Lord the praise He deserves and I will dance as David danced with joy in my heart. Blessings to all. Look forward to 2017 with gladness because you have Jesus in your heart.


I will not try to bore,  just some things I want to put down. I am sure you all have heard before.

Jesus the King born in a manger. No Bethlehem bells s ringing, no shouts of Hail to the King.  In a feeding loft for a cow or a donkey.  No Alleluia chorus or even a Silent Night. Joseph, Mary and maybe a woman from the inn to help with the birth. When I was small I used to think that Mary never felt any pain, or that the baby Jesus never cried. I think I got those ideas from the movies of the time [60’s] and I was never very bright on such things.  But it doesn’t end there does it. The angels appear before the shepherds and there is the shouts, singing and the alleluias. I don’t remember a number for the shepherds but the sky was filled with angels. I too would have been on my knees scared of what I couldn’t understand. They were told where to find the child and they sought Him out. There was no halo around His head nor any other special sign but just a small babe clothed in sheets and blankets. But because of the angels  they knew they were seeing something special. Can you imagine  them try to to tell what they had seen. Do you think they were believed? It would be like some one trying to tell they had seen a u f o .  It wasn’t a snowy night though it could have a chill in the air.  Much debate on when it happened. I always like to think September or October but this is a guess only.  Well I think we do know that it took all the money Mary and Joseph had to get to Bethlehem. We know they had to find a place to stay and that they were there for an extended amount of time.  We know the Wise Men showed up during this time and not the night of His birth.  We know they had stopped to see Herod before they met Jesus as a child. We also know that Herod knew nothing about what the shepherds had seen or heard and that he was distressed about some child being born to take over his throne. It never entered Herod’s mind this child was of God and the Messiah fore told by the prophets.  We know of the very nice gifts that the Wise Men gave to  Jesus and His parents. We know that Jesus was between 1 and 3 when this happened. Probably closer to 3.  Joseph had the dream to leave and go to Egypt. He had s small amount probably saved up for the trip to Nazareth. He got the expensive gifts and now could get enough money to go to Egypt, live for sometime and then return to Nazareth. This just my speculation but Joseph probably didn’t have much of the money left by the time he made it back home. It would have been hard to explain coming back with an abundance, since they were poor when they had left. How would you explain it all to your neighbors and friends.

So ends the story of His birth and his very early years. I told you it would be nothing fantastic but I woke up having to put it down into my own words. I would not have had peace until it was written down and finished.



It ain’t right for it to be deer season and you can walk around in a T-shirt.

It ain’t right for the leaves to be still on the trees.  It ain’t right that some are still green. It ain’t right.  It ain’t right that  a MacDonald’s Burger cost $3 and when I was a child you could get a burger, fries , and a coke and have change for a dollar. It ain’t right when $1.69 a gallon is cheap gas.  It ain’t right that in 1992 you could by a house for 50 k and it is worth twice that now.

It ain’t right when deer scent was $1 and now cost $7. It ain’t right. It ain’t right that hunting arrow points that cost $2 are  now $14 . It ain’t right. It ain’t right that a Chevy Camaro  that was 10 k now cost 25 k or more. It ain’t right.

It ain’t right that the best shows on TV, like Mash, Happy Days, and Cosby. that were big viewer getters and now we have Game of Thrones and The Walking Dead. It ain’t right.