This Christmas may be the most different in my lifetime. All of my older siblings are no longer with me. They are with Jesus. My Christmas will not be different because they are not here it is me knowing that they will no longer be able to be a part of Christmas in my life. I have 2 younger brothers that are still around but they are not around. Neither are truly a part of me and haven’t been for years. That is something I do not feel I can change. But I know that is a part of life. Life happens and life must go on.
I am happy that this year I got back into a relationship with Melvin. He makes me happy and will always be my friend. I wish we were an hour apart instead of 5 hours. But again life is what it is. I must deal with what is given to me. It is not just the past that makes us like each other but the joy of being with each other now and sharing the lives we have now.
I am happy that Mike is close and that our friendship is still very good. We both have health issues we will always have to adjust to. He is worse off than I am, meaning I am more mobile than he is. I can not feel sorry for him because he would hate that. Lynn has been the greatest friend and asset he has. She always is strong even when I know she is being pushed to her limits.
I am happy that Hannah is still in my life. She has such struggles in her life. It has never been easy for her even though she has good times and love all around her. She says she knows God and I must believe that. God has worked in her life many times and she knows that in her mind but I wonder if she knows it in her heart. She still wants to be in charge and her temper can explode in a millisecond. But I will always love her and pray for her. I must be the one to love her no matter what happens. Please God work in her life so she can see the power of your Holy Spirit.
I dearly love my church and not because they accept me but because many let me into their lives and they accept me with my short commings. They let me express my joy and sorrow even when they all do not know why these are happening. But my biggest joy is sitting next to Ed and Marijo and feeling the Holy Spirit come upon me, whether I laugh or cry or just shout out to God.
I love helping at the Literacy Council. I love to help Charly and love the ways she always supports me and others. I love the student I have now and all those in my past. I do not remember any that I did not get along with. It too has helped me grow and learn to love everyone no matter how different we are.
The biggest week and most joyous week I have is with my friends Jerry and Roxie Kaldor in Duluth MN. Their love for me is deep and always comes through. It is my second home now. We fish and have caught a lot of fish, and have been skunked but it is always good times. I can talk about whatever is on my heart. Their children accept me and the grandkids do too. I can drive around and find my way home. I love going to the canal and seeing the big boats come through.
I can say honestly I would not change where I live or what I do in life. I wish my body was whole and all workable but I can walk, talk, drive, fish, and hunt. I still laugh and have great times and I still feel the Holy Spirit hovering over me. Thank You Trinity for always being with me.
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